Restless

Channeling out the randomness in me is hard....you never know where to begin...for the rant to be genuine enough. For it to have any cleansing effect....That IS the main idea behind a rant no?

Why do i feel like ive lost sight of myself....living mindlessly. My mind is on a constant buzz.....The radar damaged....and i cant tune in to the real me. We all have those periods no? So how does one find the "reset" button.

For my life...has become so intertwined with that of the people around me....so much that im more in-tuned to the buzz of the outside world than the music of me... Their ideals, styles, point of views. For fear of being judged. But since when did i care?
The sudden pop of the switch within me totally intrigues....when did THAT happen...and how did i allow it to?
But...yea...amidst the worry...i sense calm. Because ive broken from the old damaging pattern i had...the binge...the rushed way of living through my days....

People chase the big things in life, forgetting that life is about the small things

Im paced......albeit with no clear direction. No...i do not beleive that....
The dawn of deepa (light) -excuse me if the usage is inapporpriate
is mine to discover....and time is no factor in its discovery...im getting close.
( damn...i sound corny )